...only God knows how much I missed him...
dear, Papa...
did you saw me from up above? it's already nine and a half year since you've been gone..and every single day I still cry deep in my heart...
now I had my own family (a husband and a daughter) and they loved me very much. but why? why am I still feeling alone?
I am feeling alone...everytime mama mad at me
I am feeling alone...when she told me that I am a failed daughter not like my sister
I am feeling alone...when I'm sad and she laugh and said that I deserved that
but, pa...the loneliest time in my life is when I -again and again- look into her eyes and see that there's only my sister...
somehow, when a child grown up and have her own family...her mother's love never can be replaced.. even when she had her own perfect family..
so sad when I realize, I missed her more than I missed you, pa...silly isn't it? she's here with me...and you're not for almost 10 years...but I never feels like she's here. She didn't want me, that's the point.
I wish time could change what she feels for me..because I love her. My love for her as big as my sister love to her.
goodnight, pa...
hi lita.. salam ya dari saya.
BalasHapussedih baca ini, saya ngerti perasaan kamu.
saya cuma bisa bantu doa. gbu.
hi alice, thanks for ur support :) and thanks udah sempetin baca blog saya..gbu too
BalasHapus